MiSsInG_nIgHtMaRe13's Xanga

My Lifes Ups and Downs

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 01:18:54 GMT

Ever since summer, I just haven't been feeling like myself. I just.....there's something missing. I don't mean to sound like a head-case, it's just....that my parents don't listen to me, and when they do, they don't understand, so I always end up pouring out my emotions on the internet. I end up sounding like some wierdo that's crying out for attention, but that's not it. I mean, I can go from being sad to happy to angry to depressed in one day, and I'm tired of it. I can just get angry by hearing someone talking, and I'll either want to beat the shit out of them, or just start randomly crying. Damn it! I hate having emotions. I wish I didn't have emotions. Has anyone noticed that the word emotions has the word emo in it? See? That's what I mean. I change my emotions constantly without meaning it. It pisses me off! When I started school, I thought it was ok, but now, I feel like there's too much on my plate, and I've been feeling really down. I just....hate myself for no reason. I would even end my life, but I'm not THAT stupid!!!! I mean, just because I'm feeling depressed, doesn't mean I'm going to throw everything away! I mean, there is my friends, my family, and even the people that don't care about me I have to think about. I just.....need a break from it all. I wish I could just go to a place where it was just me, and all my favorite animated friends. We would just all be togther, with my other friends. In exception that they don't ~~LIE .~~ If the person that I'm talking about reads this, know that I'm pissed at you. That one liar can change my fantasy world into a ~~NIGHTMARE~~. I was afraid to post this on dA because of Kylee's recent emotional outpour, and people would think that I was copying her for attention. But I'm not. I'm just tired of the way things have been going. I just hope that things start to look up.

~Alexandra

My hair.....

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 15:09:52 GMT

Okay, this is what happened yesterday:

(My mom speaks in BOLD and I speak in italics).

Alex, you're going to get your hair cut today! That's good!

But the battery for the car died. That's bad!

AAA can get us another one for $100! That's good!

The car's battery that was supposed to last 5 years only lasted 3! That's bad!

Our neighbor can give you a ride to the salon! That's good!

AGH!!!! My hair looks absolutely HORRIBLE!!!! That's bad!!

My hair looks so bad, that I wont go to school in September if it doesn't grow out. I JUST WANT IT TO MY SHOULDERS!!! IS THAT TO MUCH TO ASK!?!?!?! It's right below my friggin' ears!!!! AGH!!! My beautiful hair is gooooonnnneeee!!! *looks in a mirror and starts crying* And this morning, I woke up forgetting that I had a hair cut yesterday, and I looked in the mirror. I almost started crying again. I am so pathetic.

This is what my hair looks like:

No seriously. All I need is to dye my hair blue, and get a fake moustache. Or grow one O___o

MY HAIRCUT!!!! XD

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 04:30:16 GMT

Tomorrow, (well technically, it's past midnight....whatever) I'm getting a hair cut! Now you're probably thinking, why do I care about some girl's haircut? Well, it's a special haircut! I'm going to look like my, hero, JAMES!!!! HAHA!! Now you're probably thinking, why do I care that you're some anime-obsessed freak that likes to dress up as your favorite anime characters? Well, I don't know why you care! YOU decided to come here, didn't you? Well, anyway, my hair is gonna (hopefully) end up looking like this: only not guy-ish. Yeah. My friend is also getting her hair Edo-fied! (Yes, I made that word up!) We're both getting our hair done tomorrow! Her hair is gonna look blond-ish and she's gonna have semi-long-ish bangs, and sometimes, SHE'LL EVEN WEAR HER HAIR IN A BRAID!!! AGH!!! SO COOL!! I'm gonna tug on her braid every chance I get. MWAHAHAAA!!! *cough* Okay, I'm done now. Tomorrow, I'll be back to talk about my hair again! Until then, LOOKS LIKE ALEX'S BLASTIN' OFF AGAIN!!!! (Lame XP)

4Kids Are The Devil!!!!

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 21:54:23 GMT

James speaks no lies. One part of an episode, played forwards and backwards. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2K5UZXaAVZo Listen to what James has to say!!

DAMN!!! You can't see the pic!!

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 02:01:03 GMT

Well, if you don't know what the pic was, it was a pic of James pointing a gun to some dude's head. So.....yeah. Stupid Tripod.

What 4Kids, WB, etc. DIDN'T WANT YOU TO SEE ON POKEMON

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 01:57:12 GMT

This is what 4Kids, WB, Cartoon Network, etc. didn't want you to see because it was supposedly too "violent" for kids. In my opinion, I would have liked to see a little bit more of this:

GO JAMES!! VIOLENCE IS ALWAYS THE ANSWER!!

I like seeing the bad guys actually acting....well.....bad.

OMG!!! PICS!!

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 17:50:00 GMT

I found these pics, and thought they were so funny! WARNING: Kairi lovers might get their eyes burned.

Sorry...I couldn't resist.

RikuGirl and/or DieChan: (if you ever read this) DON'T YELL AT ME. I TAKE NO CREDIT FOR THESE PICTURES.

summer.....

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 01:57:49 GMT

i have done almost NOTHING this summer. well, i visited my aunt. that's about it. i am officially bored. that's okay, because when i'm bored, i always find something to do.

Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 22:11:18 GMT

Well, I saw POTC DMC with mah friend Emmy. When I saw the ending, I was like, wow! Why did it have to end there? I don't want to ruin it for the few that haven't seen it yet, but seriously, it's awesome!!! There were people waiting in line to see it outside the theater, and I was about to shout out what happens at the end. Emily stopped me. I mean, I hate it when people do that, but it's funny to do it to others!!!! They probably would have killed me, though! Good thing I didn't savvy! Anyway, go see it NOW!!!!! What are you waiting for?

Fullmetal Alchemist Opening Quote Thingy. YAY!

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 23:26:57 GMT

Alphonse Elric: Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. That is alchemy's first law of equivalent exchange. In those days, we really believed that to be the world's one and only truth.

stolen from: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0421357/quotes

I LOVE FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST!!!!!................sorry