Currently Listening Fullmetal Alchemist Radio DJ CD Vol. 2 By Japanimation see related

My Lifes Ups and Downs

Ever since summer, I just haven't been feeling like myself. I just.....there's something missing. I don't mean to sound like a head-case, it's just....that my parents don't listen to me, and when they do, they don't understand, so I always end up pouring out my emotions on the internet. I end up sounding like some wierdo that's crying out for attention, but that's not it. I mean, I can go from being sad to happy to angry to depressed in one day, and I'm tired of it. I can just get angry by hearing someone talking, and I'll either want to beat the shit out of them, or just start randomly crying. Damn it! I hate having emotions. I wish I didn't have emotions. Has anyone noticed that the word emotions has the word emo in it? See? That's what I mean. I change my emotions constantly without meaning it. It pisses me off! When I started school, I thought it was ok, but now, I feel like there's too much on my plate, and I've been feeling really down. I just....hate myself for no reason. I would even end my life, but I'm not THAT stupid!!!! I mean, just because I'm feeling depressed, doesn't mean I'm going to throw everything away! I mean, there is my friends, my family, and even the people that don't care about me I  have to think about. I just.....need a break from it all. I wish I could just go to a place where it was just me, and all my favorite animated friends. We would just all be togther, with my other friends. In exception that they don't LIE . If the person that I'm talking about reads this, know that I'm pissed at you. That one liar can change my fantasy world into a NIGHTMARE. I was afraid to post this on dA because of Kylee's recent emotional outpour, and people would think that I was copying her for attention. But I'm not. I'm just tired of the way things have been going. I just hope that things start to look up.

 ~Alexandra

Currently Listening Ultra Blue By Hikaru Utada see related

My hair.....

Okay, this is what happened yesterday:

(My mom speaks in BOLD and I speak in italics).

Alex, you're going to get your hair cut today! That's good!

But the battery for the car died. That's bad!

AAA can get us another one for $100! That's good!

The car's battery that was supposed to last 5 years only lasted 3! That's bad!

Our neighbor can give you a ride to the salon! That's good!

AGH!!!! My hair looks absolutely HORRIBLE!!!! That's bad!!

My hair looks so bad, that I wont go to school in September if it doesn't grow out. I JUST WANT IT TO MY SHOULDERS!!! IS THAT TO MUCH TO ASK!?!?!?! It's right below my friggin' ears!!!! AGH!!! My beautiful hair is gooooonnnneeee!!! *looks in a mirror and starts crying* And this morning, I woke up forgetting that I had a hair cut yesterday, and I looked in the mirror. I almost started crying again. I am so pathetic.

This is what my hair looks like:

No seriously. All I need is to dye my hair blue, and get a fake moustache. Or grow one O___o

Currently Reading D.N.Angel Vol. 02 By Yukiru Sugisaki see related

MY HAIRCUT!!!! XD

Currently Listening Speak For Yourself By Imogen Heap, Imogen Heap "Hide and Seek" see related

4Kids Are The Devil!!!!

Currently Watching Pokemon Advanced Challenge, Vol. 3 - Cheer Pressure see related

DAMN!!! You can't see the pic!!